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hApPy BiRtHdAy, mOm!!!!!!! <333 <333 

School is going fine I guess. I just really didn't really feel like doing anything at school basicly all day. 

Gilmore Girls                    &             Scarred           
are on tonight!

made a new acount; mondaywreck
will be posting on there from now on.

Well I have joined the running club and  I'm so out of shape. I'm angry at myself for it. I thought I was going to die! I wanted to keep pushing myself but I couldn't and I was angry for the teacher to be pushing me so much. I no they should but they can't push me past my limit but they did. I don't like some of the people in the running club because when they laugh I get so selfconsience. But whatever I am doing this for myself. To get healthy.
Running club is on Mondays\Wednesdays\Fridays I'm going to do my best to show up for every one. But Fridays I'm going to be emarassed about the people hanging out, outside the school...=S


But in gym we are starting track. I guess it's fun. Not all of it but we some of it.


ps.I course them skinny minnys!!

My friends have gotten me hooked on Gilmore Girls. It is now one of my fave. shows!

One Tree Hill was the best! I can not wait till next Wednesday! I'm so happy that One Tree Hill is on again and in the normal time. Yeaaah! 


It is crazyly hot out side! Man I'm dying from heat! It's to hot out. I'm not into the heat I so much like cold weather way more than hot, Boo Summer and Spring. Yeaah Winter and Fall.


Oh and at lunch I was locked out! I had to go to a my friends (that lives close thank god) house to use the phone and than my Dad had to come all the way back from work to let me in. The reason he had to come back was because we got a new lock the old one sucked and we don't got any spare keys. But that's going to changed most likely afte today.


School is what ever, lol. But congrats to Ms.Ross she is not a teacher no more student teacher! She's going to be an amazing teacher. I no it! Woot woot for Ms.Ross.


Tomorrow I'm going to be renting the first season of Gilmore Girls and looking for paint to paint my room.


ps. I canceled my piczo site. It feels good. I don't no why I had it for so long. It's dumb.

It's when those girls get in that circle and they start to talk it's the worst feeling to not no what they are saying and if it's about you and your thinking "Oh crap. Did I say anything to one of the people that are there and what the hell did I say!?" It's evil. All those stairs and glares and whispers, it's enough to kill someone. I just think that girls can be one of the worst things in the world. It's just not how I want to remember my "teen years". 



ONE TREE HILL 
IS ON @ 8PM. TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!
ABOUT TIME!!!!!!!!


PS. BROTHER AKA FUCK HEAD IS A BITCH!

Ugh have to study really hard today. Math test is tomorrow it's going to be really hard. But today I found out about some crap that happen on the weekend and well it's fucking sick and I think that, that bitch is a whore now to!

I can't breathe through my nose. I'm going on a feildtrip tomorrow I'm pumped. I'm really, really scared about the math test that is on Wednesday and I'm going to do so freaking bad. I'm have the hardest time ever remeber the formulas. There is so many of them to remember I don't no what I'm going to do!

Yuck I got my Dads cold so I can't breathe through my nose and my body hurts.

Well drinking has already started in my gr.8 most of my friends have been drunk already. Like yeah I have drank before and that but not even the hardcore deals. I just personally don't think that all the stuff I've tryed is that amazingly good, you no? Like yes I've tryed maybe one that I've really liked and what ever but still people are trying to get other people to get them stuff. But come on if you want to drink so damn bad get the shit yourself. If your so damn scared to get it yourself than why are you drinking it in the fucking first place? Huh?

My feet are killing me! Today was ruff. Went to ortho. and mall I got a great deal $6 for 3 cute make-up bags. Some pens and this amazing Sketch Book. I'm so happen I got the real deal for sketching now. Yeah! Went to conference today and that went actually pretty good. But I totally bombed on the S.S test and I study mad hard and I remeber everything that wasn't on the freaking test. Luckly there is a re-test and I'm going to take it. Mrs.Hawash said that it's going to be more of the stuff that I no about so yeaaa. I can get my mark up. So well that's all for today because I'm am really tired. Night, people.

Home early, yeah. My feet are killing me. I get an extra day to study for my S.S. test. And Scarred is on today. It's a good day.
 
I've been thinking about when I get to W. I'm hoping to find a guy that is everything I'm looking for in a guy. Like he would be nice to me and not change into a jerk when other people are around and would tell me if he thinks I look pretty. And of course I think about looks. Can't help it. (I'm going to be a total freak and list the things, cause that's what I do.)

1.) nice eyes
2.) shoulders got to be brod
3.) smells good(all in general CLEAN)
4.) nice smile
5.) hair that had length(NO BUZZ CUTS! haha)
6.) funny
7.) is a gentlemen
8.) isn't clingy


And some others just to lazy to put them. But that is a starter lol.

I am going to make myself study today.  I'm going to. As much as I don't want to at all because I have no problem doing S.S. at the time but well when it comes to having to go over it again and study it I just really hate it. So I'm going to go through mega pain today but I'm going to do it! Wish me luck, PLEASE!

I have to study and I'm going to do that. I'm going to make lunch and than study my butt off. Than I'm going clean my room because it looks like maddness in there. But ugh why did I take out that fake beer it's gross. Hope my Dad won't see that ones goen. Lol.

I have found one upside of the weather getting hotter out and that his having someone living next to you with a nice body. Haha. Oh my gosh I'm a freak. So I'm going to move onto a different topic how about the S.S test that is on Tuesday that I'm a little nervous about so I'm going to study this weekend and it's really good that I got Monday off. I get an extra day to study so I guess that's good, but now I'm going to make some food.

School is yuck. I'm not really happy with any of it really, but today we did show our movie trailers and that was good. But what's better is that these guys that live on my street well one has a really hot body hehe and just came out. I'm such a freak. Lol.

Black Christmas is the worst! Never pay money to see something that bad.

Got my 2 CDs. I love them both so much! They are awesome! 
Right now I'm adding all these great new songs for my lovely iPod.
But here is a little fill in on what's going on with this disaster is that school is evil. I'm going to fail my S.S. test. I'm fucking scared about summer coming so damn soon. I'm throughing everything I am into my books and music. Yes I'm going to be a fucking loner! Fuck! I also have yet to find a top for gr.8 grad. It's lame yeah. But I'm going in my own motha fucking style so fuck it! Hehehe. 


One Tree Hill is coming back on MAY 2!!!!! Fuck Yeah!!!!!!

Look at this cool pic; 

My dad is home yeah. I can get some CDs today. Well until than I'm going to be watching Scarred on MTV. It's the crazyest shit ever! 

My family is going to drive me crazy!!! Erg!!!

I want to have a different username but I can't, damn.



tv crazz;
america's next model
real world

I'm finished talking about that. Moving on...I'm going to HMV soon and am going to be getting a Marianas Trench and the new Avril Lavigne CD. (when it comes out, haha)

My mom is fucking retarded. I get a 30G iPod for Christmas. But she won't let me put any fucking movies or anything on it becuase it'll cost money. Fuck I hate her. She's so dumb. The point of a 30G iPod is to be able to put all that kind of stuff on there but nooooo. I fucking hate her right now. And she's always turning everything down. Even when it's NOT loud. She just pisses me off so fucking much!!!!!!!!

Letting you in on a little secret; the day I turn 18 I'm going to get my tounge pierced. I'm not going to say anything to my mom, 
a.) I'm going to be an adult. 
b.) And she'll try to talk to out of it. 
But I'm going to get it done no dout about it!

Ugh. I need to study for a S.S. test. But it shouldn't be to hard because I'm pretty good at S.S. it's one of my good classes. So I'm off to study.

I am so freaking tired becuase there is this dumb bird that is always out side my window and is waking me up at 6;00 in the freaking morning. I love animals but my god i'm going to go buy a b-b gun and scared that bird away! 

I'm crazy about Marianas Trench. they are completely awesome!

ps. I think that entertainment tonight is a bunch of crap. I hate that show. All the stuffthat they say on there is all shit. 1,2,3 fuck you ET!

I feel as though I've lost my heart, and...I'm just really confused right now. I'll be happy one moment than the next I'm completely down and sad. It's just a really crappy year and now the summer is coming up and I'm going to be so lost and alone than I'll have to go to high school and be alone for the rest of my life. I just don't fit in with the people that are around me. I need to find my way, soon.